have you ever said something that you wish you could take back? or do something you regret? the answer is most likely yes, unless you are by some reason some sort of angelic being that can do no wrong, though that is highly implausible. That for me, is the worst feeling in the world, that of regret. I have a paranoid mind and the instant something leaves my lips my mind is aching trying to analyse every single possibility of how it was perceived. It leaves me frustrated, and quite often in pain. As you can guess I'm usually subject to a lot of headaches. However, what i'm saying could apply to the wide majority of the population. Who says I'm any different? Maybe i think like this because of my sex, or possibly because I'm a teenager with raging hormones. we don't know, nor will we ever. and that's the scary part. You can analyse and judge and study all you want, you can believe the media or the government or the scientists, or chose not to its your choice. (or is it?) But, if you take a step back and look at the bigger picture for a minute, is there any real way of knowing what this is all about?
I realise that this post has become rather spiritual and earthy so i shall swiftly move on, to my next point. People who say they don't have any regrets, are usually the ones who believe that their regrets have shaped them as a person, which is al well and good. They've discovered how to learn from their mistake and to not let it bother them in this point in life. What its hard to ignore, is the recent ones. The ones that have not yet been resolved and that leave you embarrassed and itching in your skin. What's hard, is to accept your regret and live through it.
I promise my next post will be more entertaining, a little less depressing (maybe not) and better written, but for now i leave you with this jumble of words. No wonder I got a D in my English exam.
